It's Wednesday, January 16th, 2012. My mum left this morning to head back to the East Coast. Noah has gone back to school after his minor knee injury, and Jack has left for his busy business day ahead. What am I doing? I'm sitting on the couch after having weighed myself and listed for you all. I'm tired, fat, disgusted and feeling overwhelmed at this whole prospect of losing a ton of weight AGAIN!
I think dealing with the emotional issues that set the eating and weight gain in process is the hardest part of this journey for me. My life has always been hectic, but certainly having a 13 year old son with moderate to severe autism hasn't just been a NON-ISSUE. Don't get me wrong, my son is the love of my life and a joy to be around. It's that small, usually invisible part (that most of you don't see) that can set me back into the spiral of seeking food for refuge.
Enough psychotherapy sharing for today. I'm going to put my big girl panties on, and SOME GYM clothes and get started towards the gym and my beloved elliptical. Thanks for joining me on this journey. I hope that I will and can inspire at least one other to not give up... *remember the old phrase: just put one foot in front of the other.... (How many of you are singing the tune now?) Ya, me too!!
Signed,
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Julie,
ReplyDeleteI am embarking on this journey with you and will post my numbers to keep me in check...it's a brave thing to do and yet very scary to put my weight out there for everyone to see but again it will keep me in check and i dont have the funds for a gym membership so im trying to get fit at home....so here is my starting weight 159....i want to be back at 125 pre baby weight...lets do this thing!!!
Sarah Raza
WE CAN THIS FRIEND! Thanks for the encouragement.
ReplyDeleteI meant "we can DO this my friend!"
DeleteNot sure how much gym time I will get in but I definitley from this day forward watch my caloric intake. I can't diet but I will do everything I can to make a lifestyle change. I've never put my weight out there before but maybe seeing it in black and white will also ignite something within me. This will be the LAST day I post anonymous also the last day I see 280 on the scale:( Good luck to you "CUZ" :}
ReplyDeleteYou really bless me "CUZ." I cannot thank you enough for the love and support. I'll be cheering you on as well. Let's not let the hard days discourage us, okay? We'll be there for each others journies!!
ReplyDeleteSO are you going to weigh in everyday and publish or 1x a week? Whatever you do I will do as well!
ReplyDeleteSarah
I'm going to weigh daily. I'll be posting later my thoughts on why daily as opposed to weekly.
DeleteI am with you girl! This year is going to be amazing and God is going to use you and your family in a mighty way! Love ya!!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for the support!
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